LIFE UNEXPECTED

This is what I feel lately

2012-01-25T00:48:00.001+08:00

Sorry

2012-01-18T14:04:00.000+08:00

Maybe this is the best for both of us, dear friend. Sorry for removing you from my facebook and twitter account. I just don't want to hurt you more. Don't want to make you feel sad a lot. I know that sometimes what comes out from my mouth caused bitterness. We've been into misunderstandings and arguments few times before. That's so bad of me.

I totally failed at being your friend. In fact, I don't deserve to be called as your friend. I failed to understand and listen to you more. I ignore you by being silent. Lately, I avoid talking to you. That's so harsh, isn't it? I just don't know why but talking to you makes me feel guilty. Major failure.

Live your life happily. I'm sure you'll be fine without having me as your friend. Just do whatever you think that will make you feel happy. You are not weird but you are indeed different than others. That's your uniqueness. Take care.

p.s: Maybe this post means nothing to you.

MY WISHLIST FOR 2012

2012-01-01T20:39:00.000+08:00

So, this is my first post for the year 2012.

First of all, I apologized for neglecting this ugly blog of mine. People questioned me why I've been so "passive/dormant/quiet" lately. They didn't see me being active on Facebook or Twitter. I got my own reasons for that.

First, I don't feel like updating everything about my personal life. I'm not a celebrity or whatever it is, so there's no need to keep on updating everything about me. Second, I don't feel like talking much. Silence is better sometimes and I need some space for myself. Third, I'm avoiding some individuals. You know who you are.

Now, shall we go straight to the main topic?

MY WISHLIST FOR 2012. *it's more to checklist, I guess. kekeke*

1. LOSE SOME WEIGHT

This has been part of my wishlist for last year too. I failed this mission last year. It's not that I didn't lose some weight. I did lose some but I gained it back. Sigh. Food temptation is hard to resist, you know. So, I'll be starting back from bottom and this month will be the starting benchmark for this damn hard mission.

2. TRYING TO BE A BETTER ME

For the 1st half of year 2011, I think my life was quite fun and exciting. I experienced a lot of things. However, I encountered depression and demotivation a lot in the 2nd half of year 2011. You may think that I lied but it's true. I guess my anger management is getting better. You can ask my brothers how bad my temper is. They know me the best. I love you, my three little musketeers.

3. HOPING NOT TO FEEL LONELY AND EMPTY ANYMORE

I have a loving family and they are the most precious individuals in my life. I have a clique of friends that cherish my life. I'm grateful for having them as part of my life. Somehow, I always feel that there are emptiness and loneliness feelings engulfing me lots of time. Feels like there's a hole in my heart that needs to be filled up by something or someone that will lead me to happiness.

4. IMPROVE MY LANGUAGE SKILL

English, Arabic and Korean: I don't think explanation is needed for this issue. You know what I mean.

5. I SHOULD BE MORE OPEN TO OTHERS. Show people the real me. Don't be too secretive.

6. STOP DOUBTING WHETHER QS IS THE RIGHT PROFESSION FOR ME. Just go with the flow. I've chosen this path and I should not regretting it.

7. SHOULD I GET A PERM OR SHOULD I JUST STRAIGHTEN MY HAIR? I had enough of short haircut. I love short hairstyle but I want to keep it long this time.

8. I SHOULD RANSACK MY WARDROBE. All those unnecessary/unfit/outdated stuffs need to be thrown away.

9. MAKEOVER FOR MY BEDROOM. I need a lively, cheerful environment for my room.

10. MORE PERFUME COLLECTION. I'm a perfume addict. So what?

11. MORE STORY BOOKS COLLECTION. I read less last year. Failure.

12. I SHOULD GET MYSELF THESE THINGS BEFORE THE NEXT SEMESTER STARTS: External Hardisk and Pendrive. *Note to myself*

13. ACNE-FREE. kekeke.

14. I WISH FOR THIS. Can anyone give me one? Just kidding.

Nikon 1 J1 Interchangeable Lens Camera

15. I WISH FOR EVERYONE'S HEALTH AND HAPPINESS. That is the most important one.

Take care, guys!

Just Be Yourself!

2011-12-17T14:14:00.001+08:00

The way you STUDY is different than others.
The way you REVISE is different than others.
The way you THINK of things is different than others.
The way do you DO YOUR WORK is different than others.
Everything about you is DIFFERENT than others.

So, just be yourself. Be yourself, Siti. Don't let others influence you. Don't feel stress just because you are different than them.

Stand up for yourself.

FINAL EXAM IS COMING TO TOWN!

2011-12-16T20:05:00.000+08:00

Yeah, the post title sounds like "Santa Claus is coming to town." No no no. Final exam is coming in a few weeks time.

3rd Semester QS Students' Exam Timetable.

Woahhh! Did you see the one in the red box? The gap is no joke. UiTM really tries to kill me. To be honest, those three subjects are my nightmares. Sigh. Just pray that I can get through it.

I don't really care getting Dean's List for this semester. I just hoping that I will pass all the papers and get at least 3 pointer for my CGPA. I have experienced Dean's List and ANC Award before. So, I don't want to be that greedy. My main focus now is prepare myself for working life. Theories and intelligence are not enough, you have to master the practical skills too.

Next week will be the final week of lecture for this semester. Time flies so fast. And before I have the chance to relax and enjoy my study leave, I have to get through all of the following:

Monday (19 Dec 2011)

~~1. QSM505: Assignment 3 - Database~~

~~2. QSM505: Assignment 4 - Microsoft Project: Work Programme~~

~~3. QSM501: Measurement Viva + 4 Assignments~~

Tuesday (20 Dec 2011)

~~1. QSM507: Construction Law Test 3~~

~~2. QSM502: Construction Technology III Test~~

~~3. BAB401: Arabic Language I - Video Presentation~~

Wedenesday (21 Dec 2011)

~~1. QSM501: Measurement Viva (Cont'd)~~

~~2. QSM505: Information Technology Test~~

Thursday (22 Dec 2011)

~~1. QSM514: Research Methodology Test~~

~~2. BEL422: Report Writing - Group Presentation + Report Submission~~

Friday (23 Dec 2011) - NO CLASS (Goodbye 3rd Semester!)

Woahhh!

p.s:

Hafiz and me are having the same problem. Both of us are not as hardworking as we were used to be during our Diploma time. Hurm. Life is so tiring here in Shah Alam.

LOL

2011-12-15T13:50:00.001+08:00

Funnyyy!~

Congrats!

2011-12-11T01:41:00.001+08:00

Congratulations to Kolej Tun Datu Tuanku Haji Bujang, of Malaysia for winning the Bronze Awards of Excellence and technology grants worth US$2,000.

A total of six schools across Asia were named the winners of the Regional Intel® Teach School Awards in recognition of their work to transform education through the integration of technology, creativity and innovation.

by: Intel Malaysia

PROUD TO BE PART OF KOLEJ TDTHB ALUMNI!

Especially for dad.

2011-12-08T20:59:00.001+08:00

Dad's voice soothes me. At times where I feel so stress, his voice alone can lift up my spirit. His voice can motivate me whenever I feel down. Dad knows his only daughter is having hard times without even me telling him. I am crying now after hearing his voice. Dad, I know that I don't talk much whenever you call me but you know that I love you. ♥

The Concert

2011-12-08T12:06:00.001+08:00

How I wish I can go to Singapore today. SNSD is going to have their concert there for 2 consecutive days. Even if I have the time to go, I don't think that I'll be able to get a ticket. Since the tickets were sold out an hour after the concert date was announced on their website last month. Wow, sold out like that fast!

I guess it's not my luck this time. Huhu. It's okay, I still can watch it through streaming or youtube. Haha.

And how disappointed I am when I can't attend Suju and f(x) mini concert last week at Stadium MPBJ. That's it.

Whatever it is,
Education is my main priority NOW. I have to sacrifice a bit for my own benefit. Final exam is just around the corner. So, I have to double my effort.

p.s:
My friends are labelling me as a Kpop freak (SNSD fanatic mostly). Haha. I don't even care about they say because there are 3 things that make me happy. First is my beloved family, the second one is my besties and lastly is Kpop. Haha!

Cons. Law

2011-12-07T17:23:00.001+08:00

I'm afraid of Construction Law II.
This subject kills me. Die. Die. Die.

Enough said.

Someone who's good with Law, mind to share some tips?

01:26AM

2011-11-24T01:24:00.001+08:00

I'm not that strong. I'm not that tough. I'm weak. I'm fragile. I need strength and patience to face everything.

This is so not me. I know.

Random

2011-11-23T01:36:00.001+08:00

I wish I can speak out every single thing lingers inside my mind right now.

p.s: I got another wake up call yesterday. Serves you right, Siti! That's what you get for not working hard.

Eye Candy

2011-11-20T23:19:00.001+08:00

Henry Lau of Super Junior-M
grrrr!

Cuteness overload! Heee~

kyaaakkk! i like him! i like him!

BMI

2011-11-16T14:28:00.001+08:00

While waiting for my friends to finish their hair cutting session, I ended up playing with the apps that I have downloaded in my phone. I downloaded a lot of apps which mostly consist of health and games. Haha.

So, I found this one interesting fact about my BMI (Body Mass Index). I have calculated my BMI and the result shows that I'm slightly overweight. Thank God that I'm not an obese. If i do, then I'll be in a big trouble.

And it also mentioned on the ideal weight for me. With the height of 163cm, my weight should be at a range of 50.5 - 64.5kg. Wow! I must work hard to achieve that. There's a lot of unwanted fat need to be thrown away.

Hurm. What should I do next? Any suggestions?

p.s: I'm totally obsessive and sensitive regarding on this weight issue. And yeah, how I wish that I can grow taller. *tmbh tinggi 2 - 3cm gik pun jadi la*

Wake Up Call

2011-11-14T08:01:00.001+08:00

I woke up this morning and suddenly realizing that I have 6 weeks left before the Final Exam starts. Oh my gosh, what should I do? 어떡애?

I don't understand a single thing that I learn in class. That's totally a lie, I do understand a bit but...

I guess this is a wake up call for me. No more playing around. I should focus solely on my revisions.

p.s: class starts again after a week of holidays.

Fresh Look

2011-11-11T19:28:00.000+08:00

I made some changes to my blog. It looks quite plain yet simple since I removed all the widgets.

I truly apologized for neglecting my blog for such a long time. Well, I've been thinking of deleting my blog before but my friends suggested me to make it private instead of deleting it. Now, I've made up my mind. Tada! Everyone still can read it.

I post something later. Bye!

p.s: Alhamdulilah. I managed to complete two of my assignments. Clap clap.

Dear You.

2011-10-10T11:36:00.001+08:00

How do you feel when you are missing someone but you can't tell him or her about it?

It's painful. That's what I'm currently feel. Sigh.

And one more thing, it's about a good friend of mine. Not a boyfriend. I'm single.

p.s: it's my 1st time updating my blog via iPhone.

Convocation

2011-10-07T01:53:00.001+08:00

The above pictures are all related to my convocation which is going to happen on 25th October 2011. I'll be flying back to Kuching on 21st October and return to Kuala Lumpur on 30th October. We, the 3rd Semester students of QS Department UiTM Shah Alam will be given a week leave for this convocation. Hooray!

Assignments are piling up now. I'm getting headache often thinking of which task that should be completed first. Most of the assignments need to be submitted on Lecture Week 5 and 6 respectively, which is around a few weeks to come. Besides, I'll be having quizzes and tests on both weeks too. Not to mention that I have to prepare a few presentations too. Those slides are going to be presented the week after my convocation. Not so great!

p.s: I need to motivate myself more. Degree's life is totally different than Diploma's.

Shah Alam Week 2

2011-09-22T18:21:00.000+08:00

those are the subjects that i need to take for this semester.

i've been living my life as a Shah Alam resident for nearly 2 weeks now. everything is new to me. everything feels so weird and awkward. but it's okay, i'll get used to it soon.

there's no extraordinary happens in my life currently. everything is so plain and i'm doing the same routine almost every day. wake up at early morning, preparing myself for classes and go back home at 4pm. luckily that i have no class on Friday. Yeah! i have one extra day to relax and free my mind from those "tiringboringstressful" lectures. *kekekeke*

did you guys see what subjects that i took for this semester? lucky number no.9. not so great! =.='

and one more thing, my faculty's management is so messy sometimes. i ended up having my "Research Methodology" subject at different class. instead of having all of my subjects registered for class D, i have one subject registered at different class.

i'll update more soon. this is just a random post from me.

2011-09-17T17:06:00.001+08:00

Hello Campus Life!

Enough said.

MYDISTRESS

2011-09-11T02:15:00.000+08:00

i found this through Anastasyea's blog.

MYDISTRESS application

for more information, CLICK HERE.

i think it is a good app. in fact, i've already downloaded it for my iPhone.

since i'm going to live here in Shah Alam for quite a long time, this application will be very useful and helpful for me.

thus, for those who are using iPhone, Android, Blackberry and J2ME, i'm suggesting you guys to download this app for your phone.

it is a worth thing to download. for the sake of your own safety.

P.S: this app is available only in Selangor.

09.09.2011

2011-09-09T11:39:00.002+08:00

assalamualaikum wbt.

gosh! long time no see.

wow! it has been a month since my last post. blame my "lazinesspluslackofideas" that strucks me. besides, it's better for me to shut my mouth for the past few months. i have a lot came across my mind lately. i have thinking about certain things a lot. but let just keep it to myself. it's better that way.

i safely arrived at KL yesterday and i'm currently residing at my aunt's house at Kota Damansara. i'll be checking the rent house tonight. just to check how's the house condition. maybe i'll move in around Saturday or Sunday. i'll confirm it later. for the time being i just want to laid-back, enjoying my remaining holidays before my campus life begins once more. besides, i want spend this little time with my grandma too (she's here too).

4 months holiday is not really a good thing. i've done nothing during holidays besides the catering business, eid mubarak and some other mini projects. but there's one thing i expectedly doing great during that 4 months period is gaining my weight.*laugh*

i'm so going to miss my life at Samarahan campus. it won't be the same anymore here at Shah Alam.

okay, that's it for now.

*gine ndak ka hidup ku rah Shah Alam tok kelak?*

entahlah

2011-08-12T12:26:00.000+08:00

nak delete blog tapi sayang la pulak.
blog saya pulak semakin hari semakin membosankan.
patut tak saya delete blog dan bukak account tumblr. entahlah.
atau patut tak saya biarkan jer blog ni terus hidup dan bukak gak tumblr. entahlah.

tahun ni macam takde feel nak raya.
1. nenek berasa kt rumah Maksu kt KL
2. ada seorang bestfriend raya kt Sibu.
3. lepas raya dah nak masuk kuliah balik dah.

duhai hati

2011-08-10T03:28:00.003+08:00

bersabarlah duhai hati.

walaupun perit dan pedih.
bersabarlah.

tawakal kepadaNya.

...

2011-08-04T00:25:00.000+08:00

agak terasa.

kecik hatiku.

sabar jak la.

senyum jak.

Mom.Dad.

2011-08-02T12:40:00.000+08:00

Mom and Dad left for Jeddah today. Hope they'll have a safe journey there.

I'm so gonna miss you both so much. Will be waiting for you to be home in a few weeks time.

I feel a bit lonely at home now. Since my brothers are at school and one of them is at his workplace having his internship.

Mom, Dad, don't worry. I promise that I'll look after my little brothers.

Ramadhan

2011-08-01T00:59:00.002+08:00

Happy Ramadhan al-Mubarak to all the Muslims.

Forgive me for all of my mistakes and any of my wrongdoings.

I pray that this Ramadhan will bring lots of memorable and precious moments in our life.

p.s:

Happy Birthday to my uncle, Kamaluddin Abd Rahman.

Happy 22nd Birthday to Tiffany Hwang Miyoung.

tired

2011-07-27T17:35:00.000+08:00

this week was quite a pretty hectic, busy week for me. i spent most of my time on the road. settling some things here and there.

Early Morning.

2011-07-23T03:05:00.002+08:00

It's 2.24am now and I'm still awake. Yeah, it is a common thing for me at the moment. I always go to sleep around 4 o'clock in the morning. It's a habit now. Can't help it. LOL.

And everytime I wake up in the morning, that person often ask me why I keep on sleeping at a very late hour everyday. My answer is always the same which is reading. I'm so annoyed with his so-called concernedness. You! Yes, you! Back-off please! Live your own life. Thank you.

For this week alone nothing seems right from my view,

1. Gaia (It's my dad's car) having some problems.

2. Dad lost his iPad2.

3. My back hurts due to that gardening/farming thing. It still hurting till now.

4. I often got into quarrels with my brother.

5. Had a lot of disputes with mom eventhough it's just a small matter.

6. I'm kinda feeling stress of point no. 4 & 5. Guilty, angry, sad all at once. I can't stop thinking about it. Hurm.

That's it! Nyte! Or shall I say "Morning"?

I've Been Tagged by "Budak Kecik"

2011-07-19T19:42:00.000+08:00

7 Perkara Yang Orang Belum Tahu Pasal Kita

1. Saya tak suka minum Air Teh Kundur atau Air Teh Hijau (Green Tea). Kalau minum, confirm pening kepala lepas tu.

2. Tak makan makanan yang ada sos. Pelik kan? Tapi itulah hakikatnya. Kalau adik pergi beli burger memang saya pesan jangan letak apa-apa sos kat burger tu.

3. Orang cakap saya pandai memasak tapi sebenarnya saya tak suka memasak. Alahai, apa nak jadi dengan anak dara ni.

4. Memang cerewet kalau bab kekemasan. Tak suka rumah atau bilik berselerak. Semuanya mesti kemas dan teratur.

5. Untuk pengetahuan semua, telinga kiri saya ada masalah pendengaran atau dalam erti kata lain, pekak. Itu kesan dari pembedahan masa umur saya 3 tahun. Ada jangkitan dalam telinga.

6. Pemalu dan memang senyap habis bila dengan individu-individu yang saya tak kenal atau tak berapa sangat. Tapi bila selesa dengan diorang, memang confirm saya akan suka menyakat diorang.

7. I Love Girls' Generation (SNSD)! Can't help it. Haha.

Just A List For Myself.

2011-07-15T15:55:00.001+08:00

Hello, people! Just go straight to the point.

This is what I should do for the remaining days in July:

1. I need to finish reading this, "My Sister's Keeper" by Jodi Picoult. Just a few more chapters, then I'm done with this novel.

2. Okay, I seriously hate this part. I need to wipe all the windows in my house. Just 27 of them. What? 27? I know I'll be doing this alone since I can't depend on my brothers to help me. Boys, it's hard to instruct them to do things like this. They hate it. Well, it seems like I have to do this soon since next month is already a fasting month.

~~3. My Mini Garden. I need to start this mini project as soon as possible since mom is not taking any catering reservations for a few months. I got some extra time to do this now.~~

4. Medical check up and X-ray. It's for my degree thing.

5. Post all the related books with degree syllabus to my aunt's house at Kota Damansara.

6. Decorates my room. This is my other mini project. I want to decorate my room so bad but I'm so lacking of ideas now. I can't think of any suitable theme or concept for my room. Maybe I should have a visit to the showrooms later.

Me :(

2011-07-11T01:59:00.004+08:00

Hurm. How should I start my sentences here? I know it’s been a long time since my last update. Apologize for that. I’m not an active blogger now.

I’m still alive here in Miri. Living my life doing nothing at home. Well, not really. I’m still helping mom with her catering business but she has decided to stop running the business for this month and the next month. She got some other more important things that she needs to focus on. That means I get my leave till the day I will be leaving for Shah Alam. Just kidding. LOL.

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Being the eldest is not easy. Whenever I think of my family and the future, I’m afraid that I might fail being the person that they can rely on. Both mom and dad have open up about this family-related thing with me many times. I’m afraid that I might not be responsible or caring enough for them. I’m afraid that I might fail to look after them very well in the future. I acknowledge that it is my responsibility to take care of my family. I’m willing to take that responsibility not because I’m being force to but because that I love them so much. I’m willing to do anything just for my beloved family.

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Yes, I’m having some issues with one of my brothers. I’m not that close with him compared to the other two. Both of us always having lots of quarreling which I hate the most. I just hate it. Sometimes, we even fight over a stupid issue. So childish. I just wish that he change some of his attitudes. I’m not expecting a lot from him. I just want him to be more matured. Maturity. That is the only thing that I want from him. If he is matured enough, he’ll know what are his responsibilities as a son and as a brother. If he is matured enough, he’ll know what is good or bad for him. I’m just too disappointed on some of his attitudes. Feels like I’m a bad sister for him. I’m not always being there for him. I don’t really open up with him. I rarely listen to him. Bad me.

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I am so a different person at home. Whenever I’m at home, I’m not a cheerful person that everyone gets to see back at the dorm. I’m easy to get angry. I’m being so damn serious most of the time. It’s even hard for my beloved family to see me smiling. I don’t talk a lot to them. I’ll talk when I feel like I want to. And I can be quite harsh sometimes. Bad daughter. I’m really a bad daughter.

Just now my brother told me something.

“Sis, dad asked me a lot about you."

“What is it, bro?”

“He asked me what’s wrong with you. He asked me why do you seems like you are getting angry most of the time. He’s even afraid to talk to you whenever he sees that you’re not smiling at him.”

“…”

When he told me that, I feel like I wanted to cry right at that moment. I’m feeling so guilty now. No no no. I’m feeling more guilty now. Dad, I’m so sorry. Mom, I’m so sorry. I want to be that cheerful person back at home too. :(

Arghh. I just hate this part of me. Really hate it! I often ask myself why I’m being like that. Why can I be the same cheerful person that I used to be back at the dorm whenever I’m home. I am really bad.

Hello, Shah Alam!

2011-07-01T17:38:00.001+08:00

Alhamdulilah. More good news coming in lately. The previous one were my result, my dad's promotion and my mr. white apple. Now, it's about my degree application's result. :)

i got what i wanted so bad. continuing my studies at UiTM Shah Alam. this is what i always dream of.

so thankful that i was not chosen to be transferred to UiTM Seri Iskandar. no offence. Seri Iskandar is a great campus but i always wanted Shah Alam. no matter what, it has to be Shah Alam.

well, congratulations to everyone who got the offer. no matter where you guys will be heading, always remember to put studies and knowledge as your main priorities. different places have different environments. but i'm pretty sure you guys will get yourself adapted to the new environment. goodluck, guys! :)

In A Relationship

2011-06-25T19:45:00.001+08:00

Is currently in a relationship with

....

Encik Epal Puteh! :)

thanks, ayah! love you! <3

Undi.

2011-06-20T15:12:00.000+08:00

Banyak kerja juak mun nak daftar jadi pengundi tok.

Bila baca dalam website sidak, remeh juak nak mendaftar tok.

Apa-apapun kenak juak mendaftar, ya kunci kita untuk bersuara.

Sapa2 nok udah 21 tahun ya, faham2 jak la tanggungjawab dirik pun.

A letter from a daughter to her beloved dad...

2011-06-18T22:46:00.001+08:00

This post will be written in Sarawak Language. Thank You.

Ayah, Happy Father's Day!

Those words memang susah kali ayah nak dengar kamek nyebut. Kamek kedirik pun sik tauk kenak mulut tok pandei kaku mun nak nyebut word ya. Tapi dalam hati kamek, nang kamek sayang ayah cuma kamek sik pandei nak nunjuk gine.

Thank you Allah for giving me the best dad in the world!

Makan minum, pakaian, sekolah, semua necessities ayah sediakan untuk kamek 4 beradik. Apa yang kamek 4 beradik maok, ayah akan cuba untuk tunaikan sampei kadang2 kamek rasa serba salah nak nerimak. Sampei kadang2 kamek kedirik terkejut bila ayah merik kamek something yang kamek suka tapi kamek sik pernah padah pun kat ayah yang kamek suka barang ya. You are full of surprises, dad.

Bila ayah nanyak whether kamek maok barang A or B, ayah akan selalu dengar kamek jawab sama ada "Mana-mana", "Sik tauk" or "Suka hati, ayah." Nang susah mek nak jawab sebab kamek berat hati or serba salah. Serba salah sebab ayah spend duit ayah for something that is quite expensive.

I know I'm not a good daughter. Kamek nang mintak maaf gilak2 mun ada perangei kamek or sikap kamek molah ayah marah, kecik hati. Kamek tauk nang kamek tok degil gilak, pemanas, kadang2 nang melawan, sik dengar kata. Nak senyum depan ayah pun kamek jarang. Arum bulak sik mudah ayah nanga mek senyum depan ayah. Kadang2 kamek sik merik respon bila ayah kakar, diam jak. Bila ngamik ayah dari airport or tempat kerja, or even bila ayah call, kamek nang senyap jak sik tauk apa nak dikelakar. Bukan sekda topik tapi kamek sik tauk nak bercerita gine. Hati nang maok bercerita tapi hurm...Mintak maaf, ayah ngan perangei mek giya. Dalam hati mek Allah jak tauk betapa rasa serba salah nya kamek.

I love you, dad! Thanks for always being there for me.

Dari kamek baby gik nang kamek salu molah mak ngan ayah bingung hati. Time agik baby macam2 jak jadi. Umur 3 tahun dah kenak operate, mak bapak ney nok sik beliang hati nanga anak nok agik kecik mena kenak bedah. Tiap kali dengar mak cerita pasal ya, nang piluk rasa hati. Both of you are so strong to face that. Ayah, thanks sebab selalu support kamek, advice kamek and tenangkan hati kamek bila kamek rasa gelisah. Thanks for cheering me up when I'm down.

Even dah besar tok pun kamek still molah ayah ngan mak bingung. If there is something happening to me, you are the one that always comfort me. Hug me and give me a kiss on my forehead when I'm sleeping, sik kira time malam or time ayah nak turun kerja. Kamek tauk ayah care for me. Thank you, ayah! I know you are very happy when I got good result. I can hear it from your voice. Tapi good grades sik cukup untuk balas balik semua yang udah ayah lakukan untuk kamek 4 beradik. Nang sik cukup.

Sometimes kamek wonder whether i'll be able to be a good daughter. Will I?

Ayah, kamek salu dengar mak ngan Raouf madah ayah ada tanyak sidak whether kamek ada boyfriend ka sik. Hehehehe. Ayah, don't worry sebab kamek nang sekda gerek. Hehehe. :)

Ayah, Happy Father's Day! I Love You So Much!

Terengganu.

2011-06-10T14:28:00.002+08:00

hello there fellow readers!

it has been a long time since my last update. well, i was away a few weeks ago. went to Kuala Terengganu with mom, attending my beloved cousin's wedding. congratulations on your wedding, cuzzy! love you so much.

i know i should be updating this blog once i'm arrive at Miri but i have fever for a few days.

i have nothing much to say here. i think i'm just going to post some pictures on my days in Terengganu. here we go. cue! (please click to enlarge the picture)

the three sisters: usu, mom & mak ngah at thailand's food expo.

one of the booth at the expo. i don't know what was written there. sorry. kekeke.

my cousin and her husband during their 'akad nikah'. saengilchukahae!

the bride and bridegroom, siti nurhidayah and ahmad saif :)

my cousin (siti nur natasya), usu and mom :)

mom and kak tasha along with her sons (danish & raziq). missing my nephews already. huhu.

the hantaran. my mom and usu decorated them. there was 13 of them. so many meh...

wedding's theme: ladies in RED. kekeke.

both look gorgeous. :)

so sweet!

at the bridegroom's house. silver is the wedding theme.

well, there's no me in every pictures since i'm the one who took all the pictures. plus, i'm not a type of person that likes to take a picture of mine. boo me. hehe.

p.s:
1. i'm soooo jobless now. haha!
2. attention to LIYANA MORSHIDI, please leave me some clues on your blog. i can't find it till now. huhu.
3. 2 weeks at Terengganu = weight gain. currently manage to lose a few kilos. hooray!
4. saranghaeyo! hahaha. :)

ALHAMDULILAH. SYUKUR.

2011-05-25T13:39:00.001+08:00

alhamdulilah. :)

hanya itu mampu dilafazkan. kelu lidah.

dan tahniah buat rakan2 seperjuangan yang lain.

"jumpa kitak orang time convo k!"

uninspired.

2011-05-22T22:22:00.003+08:00

lack of inspiration.

sorry for being silent for quite a long time.

i wish i can speak out everything that i feel at the moment,

but i think it's better that certain issues to be kept for myself only.

a better post will be written soon.

just wait for it but i can't guarantee when i'll be posting it as it may takes quite some time.

it might takes a few days or even a few weeks.

mianhaeyo, but i'll try my best to keep my blog alive.

p.s:

the examination result will be revealed on this Wednesday (25/05/2011). hurm. hope it will bring a good news for me.

happy belated birthday to Lee Soonkyu and happy becoming birthday to Im Yoona. jjinja saranghaeyo!

temporary goodbye!

2011-05-07T23:45:00.002+08:00

starting to get busy from today onwards. i'm truly sorry if i fail to reply any of your messages or if i fail to pick up the phone calls for the next few weeks.

i'll be back once i'm kinda free.

take care guys!

p.s:

i'm in the process of losing my weight during this 4-month holiday. first step to lose weight is by telling your desire to the people around you.

and i'm trying my best to become a vegetarian.

02.05.2011

2011-05-02T17:19:00.001+08:00

30hb April 2011, hari terakhir berada di UiTMCS. selamat tinggal tempoh pengajian diploma.

sekarang cuma menanti hari untuk keputusan diumumkan. mungkin dalam tempoh masa 2 atau 3 minggu lagi. tawakal jer yang mampu saya buat sekarang.

saya tak mintak lebih, cukup sekadar lulus semua paper. saya tak mengharap ANC sebab saya rasa saya tak "perform" sehabis baik untuk final exam kali ni. tersangat frust dengan paper Construction Economics III, Professional Practice II & Measurement V.

so, cuti 4 bulan sudah pun bermula. dan saya masih lagi di bumi Kuching sekarang. kemungkinan akan bertolak balik ke Miri pada 5hb atau 6hb Mei, tertakluk kepada keputusan ayah bila nak balik. yup, we'll be driving home. not using plane this time.

dalam 4 bulan ni, macam2 boleh berlaku kan. so, harap kalian semua sihat dan terhindar dari sebarang kemalangan. hope you guys enjoy your semester breaks. dan dalam 4 bulan ni gak, saya akan tunggu keputusan kat mana saya akan degree nanti. Seri Iskandar atau Shah Alam, terpulang kepada pihak pengurusan UiTM.

Coursemate & Campusmate, sedih sangat2 sebab tak kasi korang a proper goodbye or farewell. hopefully dapat jumpa korang semua lagi. banyak benda saya nak cerita or luah kat korang sepanjang perkenalan di UiTMCS tapi satu pun saya tak mampu nak luahkan. kelu lidah nak berkata-kata. but i will miss you guys and i love each and everyone of you.

p.s:

1. heartache

2. thinking of deleting this blog. don't know. maybe. depends.

4 more to go!

2011-04-21T20:14:00.000+08:00

got 4 more papers to go!

tonight, i will just rest. my brain kinda overload at the moment.

so, just for tonight, i will just do something i really love to do which is reading the Fanfic.

Fanfic refers to fiction made by fans of a singer or group.

i just don't know why i'm so addicted reading the fanfics lately.

well, at least those fanfics can help me with my English.

i'm supposed to tell you guys on my Pre-Graduation Dinner but...

i'm not in the mood of telling you guys further details on that event.

plus, i have no pictures of that event with me now. all the pics are in my friend's camera.

pictures will be upload later.

by the way,

just to inform you guys, i was awarded as the Best Student for my course (Diploma in Quantity Surveying) on that night. well, i have no comment on that.

and i would like congratulate my high school senior, Nabilah Syafiqah who was awarded as the Best Student for Diploma Programme. Congrats! You deserved it!

well, that's it for now. enjoy your days, guys!

18.04.2011

2011-04-19T00:47:00.000+08:00

Baru balik dari Majlis Makan Malam Pra-Graduasi UiTM Sarawak yang diadakan di Borneo Convention Centre Kuching (BCCK).

Bila ada kelapangan nanti baru saya update apa yang berlangsung sepanjang majlis tu.

Sekarang ni tersangat letih. Nak berehat dahulu. Assalamualaikum.

p.s:

Happy 22nd birthday to Jessica Jung. :)

Fuhhhh!

2011-04-17T01:22:00.001+08:00

current level of stress: MAXIMUM!

aiyarkkk!

dah naik juling mata ni revise Construction Economics III. ada 2 chapter lagi yang belum dicover. dah tak larat nak membaca banyak sangat teori. fuhhh. subjek CESMM pun belum cover lagi. alahai, kenapa la dekat sangat gap exam. then, masih ada lagi tutorials yang perlu disiapkan.

aduhai.

p.s:

sekarang ni hanya mampu melihat nota untuk 2 chapter terakhir itu bergelimpangan di atas lantai. dah tak larat nak selak nota tu lagi.

ayah cakap "Jangan Panik". hurm. entah la, saya tak tahu sama ada saya panik atau saya tengah menggelabah tak tentu pasal. tengah gelisah gak sekarang, semalam ada 2 missed calls dari HEP. kenapa diorang contact waktu kritikal macam ni? ada apa-apa yang tak kena ke?

today, stress and final exam.

2011-04-15T22:24:00.003+08:00

WARNING: this post will be written in Sarawak Language. sorry to those who can't understand the language.

phone conversation between mom and me just now.

mom : kawu tido tek ka?

me : sikda la. baring jak. kepak pulang dari kubur tek.

mom : kol berapa balit dari kubur tek? rami sik orang? kawu dengan alai ka?

me : dalam kol 5 petang gya tek. nak padah rami orang, sik juak. boleh2 la. aok, kamek dengan alai, ada meera sekali ngejoin.

mom : bila exam tek?

me : hari rabu kelak start.

mom : dah start revision?

me : lom gik. angol mek dengan assignment nok perlu dihantar ri isnin tok. ada gik lecturer merik tutorial marek.

mom : haih, ada gik kerja.

me : ya la mek bingong ya. dah la paper ri rabu ya paper economics. gine gaya. ya mun boleh malam tok nak ngabis semua kerja. nasib jak sidak semenanjung balit sinun ri marek, mun sik tek nang hari tok disuruh nya anta kerja nok diberik nya marek. ya la dapat ngantar kerja ri isnin ya.

mom : kawu gik maseh demam?

me : aok. gine nak bait mun sentiasa ada kerja nak dipolah.

mom : iboh ngepush dirik kuat gilak ya. mun rasa sik pat nak ngabis malam tok. esok hari nyambong.

me : sik pat aie. kenak abiskan malam tok juak. esok nak molah revision. takut nyawa mek nak exam sikda prepare apa-apa. dah la terkejut juak nyawa ada gik kerja before nak final. adoh, gine gaya giya. dah la gap exam nang dekat-dekat. tang sik fair na jak sem tok. miak degree dah start study leave seminggu. mekrang gak 3 hari jak. semua benda nak rush sem tok. pangai asa nyawa eh.

mom : jaga dirik bait-bait ya. mun sik pat rasa nyawa nak molah ya, rest dolok. kakya sambong gik. iboh pressure gilak dirik. ada kin melarat sakit ya. iboh berjaga lamak gilak. bah, rilek jak kawu siya.

mom is the best person for you to release all of your worries. she is the best person to advise you and she is the best person for you to get your moral support (besides your dad). she is the best listener in the world. although her words are kind of simple but it can throw away all of your worries in just a glance.

i feel much more better now. thanks, mom.

p.s:
Al-Fatihah to my bestie's dad who passed away this morning.

The End of This Semester

2011-04-14T22:28:00.000+08:00

Today is the last day of lectures for this semester.

Will be saying goodbye to UiTM Samarahan Campus in around two weeks time.

p.s:

dear friends and fellow readers, please pray for my bestie, Anna Ramzi's dad. he admitted to hospital since a few days ago and still unconcious till now.

What Should I Do?

2011-04-13T12:24:00.001+08:00

i'm so not ready for final exam.

haven't prepare anything for next week exam.

still got a few more assignments that need to be completed.

aigooo.

what should i do?

p.s:

i'm currently addicted to SNSD's new Japanese single, Mr. Taxi. can't wait for their comeback in Korea, around September if i'm not mistaken and their RDR MV in Japanese Version is much more better than Korean Version. Loving It! SNSD Daebak!

what to do, i'm a Sone. (only Kpop fan understand this). hehe.

happy birthday sayang!

2011-04-11T01:09:00.001+08:00

Happy birthday to my boyfie!

The boyfriend that i'm referring to is my youngest brother, of course.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, DEAR! YOU'RE NOW 10 YEARS OLD.

KAKAK LOVES YOU SO MUCH! :)

Hari Ini dan Semalam

2011-04-07T20:39:00.000+08:00

FIRST OF ALL, SAYA NAK UCAPKAN BERBANYAK-BANYAK TERIMA KASIH KEPADA SEMUA YANG WISH BIRTHDAY SAYA SEMALAM.

tak dapat saya nak senaraikan semua nama insan-insan yang call or mesej semalam. tapi apa2 pun saya hargai kesungguhan dan kesudian korang untuk wish saya semalam. thanks, guys!

sebenarnya saya nak share dengan korang semua gambar di hari kitorang sekelas terpaksa berjaga di malam hari di tingkat atas Dewan Makan Seri Mulu semata-mata nak siapkan Tender Document dan Bills of Quantities for the purpose of Final Year Project. entah kenapa dan mengapa Encik Corby saya ni buat hal dan gambar-gambar tu semua hilang.

memang kenangan terindah la malam tu dan saya takkan lupa sampai bila-bila.the first and the last time buat kerja macam tu dengan current classmates. ye la, lepas ni bila sambung degree, tak tentu lagi semua muka-muka tu akan sambung degree.

okey, walaupun tersangat penat sebab tak tidur semalaman demi Encik Tender dan BQ tapi kitorang tetap juga gagahkan diri untuk attend QS Dinner pada malam harinya pulak. tak sanggup nak kecewakan hati junior-junior yang anjurkan event semata-mata untuk appreciate senior Part 6 diorang. thanks, adik-adik junior! event malam tu memang best giler! wish you guys best of luck for your remaining semesters. :)

* * *

okey, saya tersangat nervous memikirkan hari esok. memang berharap sangat hari esok berlalu dengan cepat. kenapa dengan hari esok? esok kitorang budak semester 6 ada final year presentation. memang kena prepare mental ni siap-siap sebab esok confirm kena hentam dengan panel jemputan. panel jemputan pun bukan sebarangan org:

1. Pengarah JKR Sarawak

2. QS Consultant dari Kuching.

3. QS Consultant dari Kuala Lumpur.

perghhhh. memang syok giler panel yang diorang jemput. memang tawakkal habis esok hari. then, lepas ni kena pergi rehearsal dengan group members untuk esok hari. saya tak tahu nak kata whether saya dah ready ka belom. 50-50.

then, hari ni juga our KP (Ketua Program) bagi borang pencalonan Penganugerahan Pelajar Terbaik untuk 5 orang student terbaik bagi setiap kursus. student yang dipilih sebagai pelajar terbaik akan diumumkan pada malam Pre-Graduation Dinner on 18th April nanti. nama-nama dibawah adalah mereka-mereka yang tercalon:

1. MOHAMAD HAFIZ BIN KADIR

2. NUR ATHIRAH BT ALI

3. SITI KHADIZAH BT ABDUL KADIR

4. NUR SHAFIQAH BT AWG JAMUDDIN

dan calon ke-5 adalah diri saya sendiri, SITI KHATIJAH BT SUAAIDI.

tiada komen untuk pencalonan ni dan saya tak rasa yang saya layak untuk dicalonkan. kalau korang minta pendapat saya, saya akan pilih Hafiz atau Shafiqah untuk dicalonkan. saya ada sebab saya sendiri kenapa saya pilih diorang. because i think they did better than me. :)

FINAL EXAMINATION

2011-04-02T01:10:00.001+08:00

p.s:

i'm a jerk. i'm useless. i'm an idiot. what else? you state it.

-so little time-

2011-03-26T22:40:00.000+08:00

I need to finish the following assignments by tonight:

1. Built-Up Rate (Final Checking)

2. Measurement: Water Reticulation

3. Civil Engineering SMM: Roadworks

Tomorrow, there'll be 4 Project Management's assignments that I have to complete. Oh My God!

Why must there be a lot of assignments that need to be submitted on 1st April? And I have Project Management's test on that day too. Not to forget, I have to attend the batch dinner during the nighttime. For sure, that day will a busy, hectic day for me.

p.s:

It has been confirmed that this semester's final exam will be held from 20th till 30th April 2011. WOW! No comment.

4:06 AM

2011-03-21T04:07:00.003+08:00

sorry to say but people do change. you can't expect them to be the same person that you've met before. the same thing goes with me. i know that i've changed now. we're getting older, guys. so, it's better to be more mature now. joking around or talking nonsense with everybody is not my thing now. it is no longer required since i am soon going to be a 21-year-old lady. you can't play around for the rest of your life. you got a lot of things that you have to think off.

once again, i'm truly apologize if you guys find out that i have turn into a very boring person now. you can call me as a cold-hearted person or whatever names that you wanted to. but hey, that's not going to stop me from living my life in my own way.

i'm getting fed up to be the one that always trying hard to be fitted in and i'm so fed up trying my best to be accepted by a clique of so-called friends. from now on, i will just walk away and go on with my own path if i don't feel comfortable around them. well, i am often been left alone, so that will not be a problem for me.

that's the recent me. that's all what i can say now.

i'll be back.

2011-03-12T20:54:00.000+08:00

aktiviti blogging akan ditangguhkan buat sementara waktu.

antara punca dan sebabnya ialah:

1. saya kekeringan idea nak blog pasal apa

2. tengah sibuk dengan final year project

3. tutorial dan assignment tak pernah hilang dari pandangan mata

4. setiap minggu mesti ada aktiviti yang mesti saya attend

sekian, terima kasih.

p.s:

muka sunburn. pedih giler. hari ni tadi ada aktiviti 'Team Building QS' kat Palm Beach, Sematan.

lantak korang lah!

2011-03-03T23:50:00.000+08:00

mcm semua org ada mslh skrg ni kan. dh mcm minggu ni minggu mslh sedunia.

yes, mmg saya kecik hati. tersangat kecik hati. biarlah, suka hati korg la nk buat apa. yg penting skrg ni, saya nk abiskan saki baki kehidupan saya kt sini dan lepas tu terus blah. dh byk kali sgt korg buat saya ni mcm patung. apa korg igt saya ni xde perasaan ke? mmg diakui kdg2 hati dan minda saya letih dgn sikap dan perangai org2 mcm ni.

yes, mmg saya akui yg saya ni cerewet dan strict. sbb saya bukan jenis yg suka buat kerja sambil lewa.. i'm perfectionist but i'm not opportunist. i tend to put other people priorities first instead of mine. mmg saya lenient sbb saya tak nak nanti ada yg tunjuk muka masam mcm org tak puas hati. sgt sakit hati tengok org yg tak dpt ditegur kesilapan dia. tp kalau dh kerja yg dibuat tak memuaskan dan byk sgt kesalahan, mmg lah saya akan naik angin. takkan la setiap masa nak ditegur kan. korg dh besar pun, dh ada experience bekerja pun. pandai2 la fikir mcm mana nk buat kan. satu lagi, punctuality is a must for me. kalau lmbt 5 minit tu saya msh boleh maafkan tp kalau dh sampai 15-20 minit, itu dh melampau. ni lah sikap org kita yg pyh sgt nk diubah.

dh la, mls nk ckp byk2. korg buatlah apa yg korg nk buat dgn life masing2. ok, fine!

p.s:
"biarlah. tandah jak, jah. sekda org nok fhm ngan org kdk kita duak tok. kita polah hal dirik mpun jak k."
(hafiz, 2011)

birthday & degree.

2011-02-25T14:06:00.000+08:00

firstly,

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY TO MY BROTHER, ABDUL RAHMAN BIN SUAAIDI

HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY TO MY HIGH SCHOOL BESTIE, SYAKUR HAKIM BIN PAUZI.

xde ucapan sangat nak kasi kt korg. dh cita pjg2 dlm sms tgh mlm td. weeee.

apa yg saya nka cerita hari ni ek? hurm.

semalam saya call emak. biasa la kan kalau sesi telefon-menelefon ni, nak melepas rindu. kadang2 dlm seminggu boleh jadi hampir setiap hari call, tp skrg takde la selalu sgt telefon, dlm seminggu tu 2 kali or sekali jer kot. sekali bertelefon mahu sampai sejam bersembang. best kot bersembang dgn emak. hehe.

then, semalam pun saya sempat call makcik saya (wa long). emak cakap nenek kurang sihat, kebetulan malam semalam saya lapang so saya pun terus call makcik saya. sekali lagi, punya la panjang sesi "poret". haha. semua cakap tak sabar nk tunggu saya balik Miri. ye la, abis jer praktikal bln 12 hari, saya mmg tak balik Miri. stay kt Kuching, even after family trip hari tu. jgn risau ek, lepas ni mmg saya duduk lama kt Miri tu. 4 bulan. :)

perihal degree:

sekali lagi minda & hati saya dicabar oleh persoalan degree. skrg ni ada saya dua pilihan nk sambung kt mana.

1. UiTM (Shah Alam or Seri Iskandar)

2. UIA

kenapa UIA masuk final list ni? sbb saya dgr kt UIA (untuk course QS) ada belajar psl Oil & Gas. since saya ni warga Miri (sila tengok buku teks Sejarah dan korang akan fhm) dan mmg berhajat nk kerja di Miri (or paling jauh pun kt Brunei) terutamanya dlm section Offshore dan sewaktu dgn nya, so syllabus tu mmg menarik. tp yg tak best nyer, kalau further kt UIA tempoh pengajian adlh 3 tahun lebih instead 2 tahun. hurm. sigh.

kalau saya further kt UiTM, parents saya lebih prefer saya utk sambung di Kampus Seri Iskandar, Perak. even pakcik saya yg duduk kt KL pun ckp mcm tu. pakcik cakap Shah Alam skrg dh tak mcm dulu, social life kt sana dh lain. tak silap saya, lecturer saya pun ckp mcm tu smlm dlm kelas. tak kisah la kt mana UiTM nak letak saya nanti, yg penting saya dpt sambung degree.

point ketiga ni just imaginasi. kalau dpt scholarship pergi luar negara. mmg confirm saya ambik. bermimpi jer la engkau. haha.

tu jer la update utk hari ni. weekends ni kena bertarung utk siapkan 4 assignments. tahniah!

today's event.

2011-02-22T00:30:00.001+08:00

hari ni tadi ada majlis anugerah dekan utk semester april 2010 & oktober 2010. majlis kali ni buat kt Dewan Jubli UiTM jer, tak mcm previous semesters yg selalu buat Riverside Hotel. overall, majlis malam ni ada sedikit membosankan tp syukur jer la dgn apa yg diterima.

gmbr nanti la share sbb byk gmbr kt kamera kawan. saya mls nk bawa kamera mlm ni.

p.s:

tengok senarai nama penerima Anugerah Naib Canselor tadi mmg buat saya pressure habis.

hurm. byk dh kenalan ckp saya makin senyap skrg ni. hurm. byk ckp tp isi kosong pun tak guna kan. so, better senyap.

11:57AM

2011-02-19T11:58:00.000+08:00

going to be extremely busy.

no no no. i purposely making myself busy so that i can forget everything that happened.

now i have just ignore everything and focus on what i have to do.

i should be in the right track right now. just focus on the main priority first.

p.s:

i have sent you an apology message last night. i truly understand if you don't wish to reply it back or talk to me again. well, i'm not really a good friend as what you can see. i've said it too many times before. you can say whatever things you want and even you can ignore me if you want to. i'm okay with it because i deserved it. that's all. take care.

Finally, I Talk About It.

2011-02-17T22:43:00.001+08:00

i feel like wanting to talk to you again but something stops me from doing it so. a few weeks have passed by since the last time i talked to you. i just don't know what's the reason behind it. what stops me from talking to you again. ego much, i guess. or maybe i just don't want to look like a fool again where i'm the only one talking and you're just listening.

no. no. no. i don't like that kind of conversation. i'm a type of person that love to hear other's opinions too. i want to know how other people think of certain issues discussed. please, don't be too stiff. it bores me and in the end, i will get fed up to have a chit chat with you. i'm so sorry for my actions lately. i'm so sorry for being 'missing in action' for this few weeks. i'm just feeling too annoyed sometimes. i just want my own space sometimes without a person being a stalker who keep on knowing everything that i do.

well, it's hard to predict what's going on with a girl's heart. isn't it? today they will be extremely happy and the other day, they will turn into HULK.

hurm, i want to highlight another issue here. please stop gossiping about me and hafiz. we are not a couple, we're just friends, i guess more to bestfriends. there's no way that i'm going to hook up with a person that i've considered as my bestfriend. it is better to lose a boyfriend than losing a bestfriend. as like what i've mentioned before, i'm not into any relationship at the moment. single is better for the time being. no headaches, no stupid quarrels or whatever. i can just focus on myself.

p.s: assignments are piling up and final exam is coming in 2 months time. hurm.

pieces of memories.

2011-02-12T23:44:00.002+08:00

ni just gmbr time family trip ke KL & Melaka hari tu. baru hari ni nk share. xde la semua gmbr nk share, just gmbr2 yg saya suka tengok jer.

ni kitorang 4 beradik & cousin saya. yg pakai spec tu cousin saya.

masing2 tgh menahan mata yg tgh mengantok time ni. ye la, pukul 2 pg pun msh merayau kt KL. hehe.

over la pulak pose adik aku ni. haha.

my mom and my aunt. time ni kitorang kt Melaka.

berangan nak jd cover page National Geographic. ni lah jadi nya. haha.

ntah apa2 la gmbr ni. haha

okay, gmbr ni saya edit sbb saya suka tengok ayah & adik bongsu saya berpegangan tangan. sweet sgt2.

Ingat Allah sentiasa bersama kita.

2011-02-05T23:42:00.001+08:00

Ingat Allah sentiasa bersama kita.

Di kala sukar mahupun senang.

Duhai hati, bersabarlah.

Insyallah satu hari nanti, rasa keras dan dingin di lubuk hati akan sembuh.

Walaupun diri teramat benci dan gelisah dengan apa yang dirasai sekarang.

Teruskan berdoa.

Insyallah hatimu akan mulai lembut. Bukannya sekeras dan sedingin kini.

the end of January 2011

2011-01-31T14:48:00.000+08:00

time flies so fast, isn't it? goodbye January 2011.

as what i've promised, i will list down all the tasks that need to be completed within this holiday. here we go!

QSD381: Measurement of Construction Works V

Surface Water Drainage (Measurement)
Past year questions: OCT 2008 (Costing/ Estimating)

QSD382: Construction Technology V

Tutorial 1: Demolition Works
Assignment & Slide Presentation: Methods of Demolition (to be submitted on 10th February)

QSD386: Construction Economics III

Past year questions: LCC Calculation
Exercise: January 2011 test

QSD389: Professional Practice II

Read on Chapter 1 (Construction Contract)
What is the current rate of BLR?
Identify the certificates used in the Conditions of Contract
JKR minimum rate for LAD
Sample of latest certificates used for private and government projects
Highlight the differences between PAM2006 and JKR PWD203A especially on clauses regarding the Site Possession, SO Instruction and Completion.
Look for JKR latest addendum

QSD393: Measurement of Civil Engineering Works

Read on "Method Related Charges" and "Method Statement"
Tutorial 1: Preliminary and General

QSD362: Project

Amendment of Preliminary Detail Abstract (PDA)

p.s: now i'm so confused on which task shall i do first. hurm *sigh*

decisions are made. worries now over.

2011-01-29T23:23:00.003+08:00

annyeonghaseyo.

today is the 2nd day of my mid-semester holiday and i get caught by fever. great =.='

well, nothing much to update on since i haven't start preparing my assignments and tutorials. currently having no passion to flip through them. thinking of only resting and do everything that i love to do for these 3 days. i'll make sure that i'll start doing those tasks (assignments and tutorials) on this Monday onwards.

ok. let's go straight to the point, the Degree/Bachelor issue:

i have discussed it with mom today. dad also has expressed his opinion on that issue and he has suggested a better place to further my QS study once i'm done with my diploma. mom even agreed to his suggestion and she has suggested some other plans too. she wants me to act quickly or i will lose all the chances to reach my goal. i think i will just listen to their advices since they know what's the best for me and they're the one that truly understand me. i guess you guys will be wondering which path will i take. just wait and see what will happen in the next few months.

Language barrier/ English conversation issue:

i've opened up about this with mom too. i've told her my worriment regarding on my availability to converse fluently and write better in English. i'm just a moderate user, not a person that really fluent to communicate in English. even my writing is very plain. i'm worry about this most of the time, maybe it's the effect of my PDA presentation on last wednesday. i failed to perform my best on that day.

mom did mention something and it really inspires me to improve my English. i love you, mom. you really know how to calm me down whenever i'm so freaking worry over something. the same goes to you, dad. you've always be there for me, trying to make me feel better whenever something happen to me. love you both!

seriously, i envy both of my parents since they can speak English fluently. i love hearing my mom converses in English and i love reading my dad's writing.

p.s:

mom told me that she's now addicted with Secret Garden (Korean Latest TV Drama). great! mom, now you're influencing to watch it too. haha. lol.
my little bro said that he's going to post me a video of him playing guitar since i'm so eager to learn playing guitar. can't wait!
gonna list down my assignments and tasks in my next post.

Future O Future!

2011-01-28T00:18:00.001+08:00

done with Preliminary Detail Abstract (PDA) presentation yesterday. alhamdulilah. fuhhh, lega sangat2. sudah, sudah, tak nak cerita psl presentation smlm. apa yg berlaku semalam biarlah menjadi rahsia antara saya dan rakan2 sekelas. yang penting kitorang dh buat yg terbaik.

* * *

ok, berbalik kpd cerita kehidupan di alam kampus. skrg ni budak2 UiTM tgh sibuk dgn perihal cuti midsem. ye la, esok masing2 dh start sibuk nk fikir psl nak balik jer. bagi saya pulak, perkataan 'CUTI' tu bermula pd hari ni sbb esok takde kuliah (i mean Friday). yes! seperti biasa, saya TAK akan balik Miri sbb saya lebih prefer utk stay kat kampus. assignments dan tutorials sudah menanti saya semasa cuti ni nanti. wahai otak, bersiap sedialah dikau utk diperah-perah.

sejak kebelakangan ni jugak la byk cerita psl degree saya dgr. dari kawan mahupun lecturers. tak tahu nk ckp mcm mane. yg saya tahu skrg ni utk course saya (Diploma in Quantity Surveying), placement for degree dibuka cuma di UiTM Shah Alam dan UiTM Seri Iskandar, Perak. kenapalah ko takde kat Sarawak ni? kalo ko ada kt sini, tak pyh la aku kusut kepala fikir kt mana aku kena tikam karang.

ada gak terfikir nk further kt universiti lain tp tak sure lagi. kt malaysia ni, cuma UTM, UIA dan UM yg ada offer course QS. kalau kat oversea pulak, cuma UK, AUS dan NZ jer yg ada degree QS. alahai, Korea takde la pulak. (nak penampo ko ni, asyik Korea jer. haha. lol)

ada tanya senior2 saya psl environment study kt oversea tu. Abg Hisyam dan Kak Natalia, both now kt UK amik degree kt sana. Kak Nat skrg ni tgh tunggu nak amik Master kt sana jer lg. Kak Nat ada encourage suruh pergi kalau ada peluang, even my boss and supervisor kt Javel dulu pun ckp benda yg sama.

period study degree kt sana dan kt UiTM sama jer. cuma yg bezanya ialah sistem kuliah tersangat berbeza dgn sistem kuliah di UiTM. kelas kuliah mmg x byk, free sgt (bak kata abg hisyam nang free gilak2 sampei mala nanga muka nya on9 almost 24hours dlm fb). then, assignment bukan soalan yg direct mcm skrg ni, mmg mencabar minda habis-habisan. kt sana nanti, dpt peluang tengok teknologi construction yg lebih canggih berbanding kt sini. then, jd lebih tahu lg tentang management dlm construction. tp mental kena betul2 prepare la. (kat mana2 pun kena mentally prepared.)

maybe lps ni nak jumpa KP and senior lecturers yg pernah study kt sana, nak mintak opinion diorang pulak. ok, enough said. panjang sgt ni.

oh, future! oh, language barrier! oh, communication skills! oh, laziness! great =.='

nyte everyone!

wish me luck!

2011-01-25T18:26:00.000+08:00

wish me luck for tomorrow's PDA presentation.

not to forget my classmates too.

gonna triple my effort tonight!

hwaiting!

happy mode XD

2011-01-21T00:51:00.000+08:00

thanks for the chocolate!

really appreciate it!

masuk2 jer bilik td, roomate ckp ada hadiah kat atas meja. terkejut gak bila dgr ada org kasi hadiah. nak ckp hadiah birthday, ternyata bukan sbb lama lagi la birthday. tengok2 atas meja ada cokelat yg boleh thn besar gak saiz. agak terbeliak mata ni melihat. thank you so much!

* * *

hurm. kenapa saya agak malas sejak kebelakangan ni? kenapa saya blur sangat2 dlm kelas? kenapa saya mcm takde mood nk study? kenapa hati ni selalu sgt rs sedih dan sepi jer? kenapa selalu sgt saya rs teramat sunyi? bukan sunyi sbb hal 'couple' atau sewaktu dgn nya. tidak tidak tidak. rasa sunyi yg dialami skrg ni mmg lain. tak tahu nk explain macam mana.

hurm. x boleh main2 dgn hal study. kena push diri saya juga walaupun apapun alasan yg cuba nak diberi.

works are piling up. kena pandai bahagi masa ni. x boleh nk buang masa sgt. semester terakhir mmg agak sibuk dgn final year project, assignment dan sebagainya tp itu tak bermakna sampai menjejaskan performance dlm exam, kan? siti, hwaiting! daebak!

p.s: terfikir nk delete facebook, deactivate atau tidak? hurm.

2nd Week of Lecture

2011-01-15T22:29:00.002+08:00

assalamualaikum, fellow readers.

yes, i've been in this campus for 2 weeks now. still trying my best to adapt and suit myself to this campus life once again. i'm really pushing myself hard to read some of the construction-related books. of course i need to read lots lots lots of them. i must say that the "zero-study-mood" really influenced me lately. i become more lazy to befriend the books unlike before. i must throw away this laziness, like seriously but how am i going to do it? can you guys suggest me some ideas? desperately needing it.

just fyi, i'll be sitting for 7 papers for this semester. trust me, those 7 subjects are so damn tough where the part 6 syllabus and formats are now requiring more on our critical thinking skills, communication and management skills, problem solving skills as well as our ability to apply all the theories into certain construction situations. proper language is needed this time. no more immature statement or explanation etc. the lecturers expectations are higher this time. hence, we need to be so matured and act like an adult/ working individual after this.

the main reason this type of format being introduced is because of our industrial training background. our lecturers want to ensure that whether did we make full use of our internship or did we just play around during those 6 months period. there's another thing that i would like to highlight here. there'll be external examiners that will do the checking for exam papers besides our lecturers. the reason behind it is because UiTM wants to ensure that all the QS graduates are at the best quality and fully ready for employment once they graduate.

the followings are some of the panel that will involve in the exam paper checking:

Quantity Surveying Department of Universiti Teknologi Malaysia (UTM)/ Universiti Islam Antarabangsa (UIA)/ Universiti Malaya (UM)/ Universiti Sains Malaysia (USM)
Jabatan Kerja Raya Malaysia (JKR)
Institution of Surveyors Malaysia (ISM)
Lembaga Juruukur Bahan Malaysia (LJBM)

after reading this list, i am really crossing my fingers now. hoping that i'll get the best result later. i need to score since the current semester is my final semester. btw, the class reshuffle happened again and i've been relocated to Group B. there's nothing much changes occur in the timetable besides knowing the fact that i'll be having class on Monday night (6-9pm). great! =.=' the rest of my classes will begin at 10am.

"siti, you can do it! hwaiting!"

p.s:

-can someone please explain me more on A-Level thing. i really need some advices on it.

-OMG, i really hate this feeling of loneliness and emptiness. argh. shuh, go away!

can't wait for SNSD new MV (Collaboration with INTEL) to be released on this Monday. SNSD Daebak!

Reminder For Me!

2011-01-08T13:25:00.000+08:00

This post will be written in Sarawak Language. No translations will be made. Sorry to those who's having difficulties in understanding what's written here.

Reminder For Me:

Kawal kemarahan dan emosi. Kawu nang ada prob kit mun nak ngontrol perangei kawu nok kuat manas ya. Cuba ubah k. Sik bagus bha marah2 ya. Makin2 gik kawu ya mpuan. Molah kawu stress jak.
Cuba sentiasa senyum. Iboh serious gilak air muka ya. Takut orang nanga bha. Walaupun secara semulajadi nya air muka nang gya tp cuba ubah k. Sik susah ya.
Mun berkelakar ya cuba slow2 kit. Iboh laju gilak. Bergolong bunyi lidah kawu ya kelak.
Kurangkan kakar benda yg sia2. Berkata hanya bila perlu jak. Mun sikda benda nak dipadah or dikakar, diam jak k. Silence is the best remedy bha.
Rajinkan diri ya membaca ngan mengulangkaji. Kawu ya udah final semester bukannya baruk nak masuk kampus. Mun maok ANC, kenak la triple kan effort ya. Struggle habis-habisan. Hwaiting!
Siapkan kerja or tugasan kawu awal. Kawu tok antara muka nok suka molah kerja last minute. Sik bagus ya. Mala sik tido bila molah kerja last minute. Nang sik bagus ya. Ubah k. Dapat ya.
Bila2 pas abis molah revision, terus polah short notes. Iboh ditangguh sampei dah nak final baruk nak molah. Iboh giya. Serabut palak kawu kelak.
Jangan takut bertanyak, bersuara dan menyatakan pendapat kawu bila dalam kelas.
Iboh molah muka 'blur' dalam kelas sedangkan kawu sebenarnya faham apa yg diajar. Ya molah kawu salu kenak aim cdak lecturer dlm kelas.
Polah hal dirik mpun. Iboh gago nak jaga tepi kain orang. Eh, aku nang sik gago hal orang pun. Tok just pakei peringatan rah aku jak.
Polah jak apa2 yg boleh molah ko rasa happy. Lalek la apa orang nak padah. Cdak sikda hak nak stop kawu dari molah apa yg dpt molah kawu happy and sik rasa emo. Emo ya sik bagus untuk hati dan minda. Mun sedih2 ya, bukak jak tafsir Al-Quran ngan Hadis 40. Kakya settle la perasaan kawu ya.
Iboh bingong kuat gilak eh. Iboh kuat gilak fikir benda nok bukan2. Iboh fikir benda nok sik sepatutnya. Jaga kesihatan dirik kawu ya. Bila kawu tension, ya la kawu mudah sakit jak2 ya.
Jodoh, gerek dan hal sewaktu dengannya. Iboh kawu kenjit nak mikir hal nok tok. Ya bukan priority at the moment. Fikir lok hal nak abiskan diploma tok. Jodoh ya hal kemudian. Mun ada jodoh, ada la. Mun sikda, mun rezeki kawu. Kelak2 nya dtg dikpun.
Mun dapat nak, ko exercise at least 20-30 minutes per day. Bukannya jauh gilak pun gymnasium ya. Dekat blok 4 jak gym ya, lagipun kawu diam kat blok 1. Dapat jalan kaki g siya. Nang sik jauh. Badan cergas, otak cerdas. Bagus gik ko g gym dari kawu tido petang jak kerja.
Buangkan sifat pemalu. Sik bagus gya. Gney nak maju mun dirik masih ada sifat pemalu. Nanga kawu sikap and perangei orang Cina gney. Giya la kita.
Iboh tido aher jak kerja. Cuba tido awal. Sak ko sik ngantok gilak dalam kelas kelak.
Iboh pengitok gilak. Benda yg dh lepas, biarkan jak nya berlalu. Fikirkan masa depan kawu. Ya penting gik.
Belajar Bahasa Korea. Haha! Nang ada tok masuk list juak. Wajib masuk tok. Satu kemestian. Hangul Session is a must for me. HAHA!

p.s:

panjang juak list tok tek. mun ktk org rs ada benda gik perlu ditambah, pdh jak. lak i add dlm list tok juak. hehe.

1st Day of Lectures

2011-01-03T23:29:00.000+08:00

assalamualaikum, dear readers.

today is my first day of lectures. nothing much going on and i got only 1 class for today which was Construction Economics III. i must say this semester's syllabus for Eco is quite interesting compared to the previous semester. shall say "previous two semesters" since i've not attended any class last semester. of course i have no class, i was on my internship period, dude! lol.

i hate tomorrow's timetable. really hate it. "kelas kol 2-4pm jak, sapa sik geram. alang2 ada jak kelas gya." yeay! i was NOT chosen as the class representative. i am really avoiding that position. i don't want my final semester's journey to be disrupted by the busy, hectic schedule as a leader. i'm comfortable with how i'm running my daily routine as it is now. so that, i can give more attention on lectures and revisions. i got my own target for this semester. pray that i'll get it. i want THAT so much.

each of my besties is receiving good news recently. i'm happy for guys and i will keep on praying for your happiness, babe!

p.s:

my new roomate's name is Liyana. she is currently a fourth semester student. we're in the same faculty but she's from the Building Department while i'm from Quantity Surveying Department. you know what, she's a Kpop addict too. great! :)

gonna update more soon!

29.12.2010

2010-12-29T20:42:00.001+08:00

wow, i haven't update my blog for quite a long time. well, just blame my laziness. err, nope. blame the boring me who keep on running out of ideas lately. i don't have much to tell you guys on what i've been doing these days. life kinda boring nowadays. got nothing much to do, to be exact.

online, facebook, ym. those are what i've been doing to fill up my leisure time. seems very boring, isn't it? what a pathetic daily routine. i bought a novel a few weeks ago and i didn't have the passion to read it yet although the storyline was quite interesting. perhaps, i will just read it later (at the campus, of course).

talking about campus, i think i have to accept the fact that i'll be heading to UiTMCS on this Sunday. oh, no! am i ready for my campus life again? hurm. i don't think so. i guess i have to motivate myself more. well, i really have to bear the hectic student life once more. just this time, Siti. just this time because this will be your final semester. then you'll be leaving for your degree/bachelor.

i'm talking crap. oh, God! i really need some ideas now! that's all for now. annyeongheesaeyo.

Family Trip

2010-12-21T19:18:00.000+08:00

currently at KL. going to update more soon.

annyeong!

The Last Day of Internship

2010-12-15T21:32:00.005+08:00

alhamdulilah. my internship period finally over. i'm kind of heavyhearted leaving the office just now. really gonna miss my Javel's family, not to forget OBYU Group too. i've learnt a lot during the past 6 months. all the knowledge and experiences that i've gained during my time at Javel will benefit me later.

Board of Directors (Sir Nadziff, Sir Drahman and Sir Edrus):

Sir Nadziff and Sir Drahman, i'm so grateful on your willingness to accept my application on having my training at Javel Engineering. as for Sir Edrus, thanks for all the knowledge and information that you've shared. you've taught us a lot regarding the Construction and Quantity Surveying field. you keep on motivating us on achieving the best in our studies. i will always remember all the advices that you've given to us. i will also miss all of your jokes since you're the one that always tease me back when i'm at the office. haha.

QS Department (Sir Salim, Sharifah Hasmawati and Hazeley):

thanks for everything. you guys have taught us a lot on Quantity Surveying stuffs. i've never know any QS tasks like procedures for Monthly Progress Claim, Payment Certificate, VO order, PDA/CSA, or even Final Account before. thanks to guys that now i know what those things are. now, we even recognize all the details and conditions required for preparing the Tender/Contract Document. Sir Salim, you're a very cool and kind. Sis Hasmawati (Mbok), sorry if any of my jokes did hurt your feelings. i know that i'm always teasing you at the office and i still remember that you'll always laugh whenever you see me (eventhough that i'm making no jokes at that moment). bro hazeley, thanks a lot. i really appreciate all of your consults. i really honour your kindness in teaching us, you really taught us a lot.

Accountancy Department (Kak Tuty, Kak Intan, Kak Norina, Kak Mona, Kak Jem and Abg Yapri):

well, i'm going to miss you guys the most. you are the happy virus in the office. you're the one that always keep the mood alive and if any of you is absent, the environment at the office will be dull. it's true, i'm telling no lies. i will miss all the laughter and talks that we have. i got nothing much to say exactly. well, some things are better left unsaid. nice to know you guys and it is even more wonderful to be part of you guys.

Document Controller (Kak Lisatikah):

i'm so sorry, sis. besides Mbok, you're another person that always been teased by me. i just love hearing your 'nagging'. hehe. sorry. i'm going to miss you calling me as 'ngegeh' and 'bujat'.

SMSKU & LHDN site team members:

got nothing much to say. thanks for everything. :)

what a long post. ignore my grammar anyway. i know there's a lot of grammatical errors in this post.

DEAR MOM.

2010-12-12T22:34:00.004+08:00

"you should relax yourself a bit. don't push yourself too much. don't stare at the laptop screen for quite a long period. that'll stress you. change your sleeping hours. go get enough rest. less sleeping hours, that's the reason why you always get headaches."

mom, i still remember your words back when i'm in Miri last week. some people will consider those words as a nagging but it's not. it's one of the ways how a mother shows her love, concern and care towards her children. our parents' "nagging" is actually an advice given to us. please listen to it and deeply think about each thing that they said. all the words spoken have meaning behind it.

dear mom,

i'm just fine. i'm not pushing or pressuring myself. i know that i'm kind of workaholic sometimes but i'm just alright. to be honest, sometimes i purposely keep making myself busy. the reason behind it is i feel so lonely sometimes. i do have friends and cliques here but nothing beats my beloved family. i feel more secure and happy when i have my family by my side. my heart will be full of joyfulness when i'm with you guys. keeping myself busy is one way of how i want to endure the loneliness and sadness that i feel sometimes.

i'm not very good in expressing my feelings or my opinions towards mom and dad. sorry. i've caused you to cry and worry a lot about me before. i'm so sorry once again. about that lack of sleep thing, i got insomnia since i'm having this campus life. i'll try my best to change and adjust my sleeping time. i will manage my time wisely so that i will not end up sleeping late or having no sleep at all.

i realized that mom and me are both different. mom is a person that loves shopping while i'm not. i don't do shopping often like mom, i'm a type of person that attracted more to manly stuff such as gadgets, cars etc. to be honest, i always do the man job such as checking the gear oil, car battery, playing with hammers etc when i'm at home. *even makcik sebelah rumah hairan nanga aku molah kerja orang laki*. haha.

when both of us went for shopping, i'm the one who keep on reminding her on the financial things like not to waste her money too much. sometimes i did said things like "mom, hurry up. we need to be home at 5pm. we need to bla bla bla..." or "oh, no. you lost your phone again, isn't it?". erk, i sound like a grandma, isn't it? so funny. mom is really like a kid when it comes to shopping. sometimes, i just have to stop her from overspending her money. there is a lot of differences between both of us but i'll keep it to myself. however, no matter what the differences are, i still love you mom!

saranghaeyo, omma!

oh, no! kinda lazy to go to work tomorrow. monday blues.

alhamdulilah. :)

2010-12-09T13:18:00.001+08:00

alhamdulilah. syukur ke hadrat ilahi. x tau nk ckp macam mana.

sepatutnya result exam keluar esok tp tiba-tiba pulak kwn ckp dh boleh check hari ni.

syukur gak sbb dpt check result awal sbb server dh mula sesak dan byk gak yg x dpt nak check result skrg ni.

tak sangka dpt 4 flat. syukur sangat2.

biarlah org ckp "ala, praktikal senang la nak skor 4 flat", asalkan hati saya senang. bukan selalu dpt peluang nak dpt result mcm tu. praktikal bukannya senang, dh mcm belajar sambil bekerja. makin2 lagi utk budak yg involved dlm construction field mcm aku ni. alam praktikal sgt tough yer. x dpt nak goyang kaki sangat.

dlm gembira tu ada sedihnya juga. sblm ni check result mesti ada mak & ayah kt sebelah. kali ni, situasi berubah. check result sorang2 kt office. huhu. takpe la, asalkan dpt buat mak & ayah gembira dan bangga. :)

anyway, tahniah kpd semua UiTMnians!

06.12.2010

2010-12-06T16:10:00.005+08:00

assalamualaikum, dear readers.

p.s: i'll be using both English and BM for this post. thank you.

to be honest, i've got no clue what am i going to write right now. just for your info, i've just returned to Kuching yesterday. oh siti, where have you been last week? i was in Miri last week, spending my weekend with my family. aik, balik Miri lagi? well, we were having 'makan arwah' and i was so eager to meet my 'mak ngah' and my cousins. sbb tu la nak sgt blk Miri. almaklumlah, dah lama tak jumpa diorang. mak ngah is my mom's younger sister and she's now living in Kuala Terengganu with her family.

the last time i met them was in 2007. masa tu, anak mak ngah kahwin kat Miri. insyallah, by next year i'll have the chance to meet her again because i'll further my study at Shah Alam. at the same time, i'll be able to meet my usu too (my dad's younger sister who's now living in KL). insyallah, kalau ada rezeki dan umur panjang.

next week will be the final week for my internship. i have approximately around 8 days left before my internship ends. time really did fly so fast. macam baru semalam hari pertama praktikal, tup tup skrg ni dh nak habis. hari ni tadi ada jamuan kecil kitorang buat sbg tanda terima kasih dekat semua staf Javel Engineering. kenapa buat hari ni, bukan masa hari terakhir praktikal? sbb time last day tu, company ada ISO Renewal Audit dan sahabat saya, Hafiz takde kt Kuching sbb dia berangkat ke Beijing bersama MPP UiTMCS. so, sbb tu kitorang buat jamuan ni awal. thanks to all staffs for their supports and cooperations for the past 6 months.

dah tak tahu nak buat apa utk minggu-minggu yg akan datang. dah mula download exam papers sbb nak revise apa topik yg bakal dibelajar semester depan. kena prepare awal, tak nak main-main semester depan sbb it will be my final semester dan saya dh ada target yg saya nak capai utk semester hadapan. oh ya, jumaat ni result bakal keluar. so damn nervous! all the best to all UiTMnians.

got to go. annyeong! *wish to learn korean language soon!*

mohon maaf utk bahasa yg bercampur baur.

so nyeo shi dae.

2010-12-02T16:42:00.003+08:00

i think that i'm falling for you.

i know that i'm a girl but i can't help it.

i just love you guys! haha. LOL.

SARANGHAEYO, SO NYEO SHI DAE (SNSD/ Girls Generation).

p.s: if you guys wear tudung and cover your aurat, you'll look more beautiful. definitely! SNSD Hwaiting!

what i do really feel at the moment?

2010-11-30T11:25:00.005+08:00

empty-headed. idiot. stupid. emotional. ok, that's why i feel about me at the moment.

totally feels like an idiot. feels like i don't deserve to be here. to be honest, i'm a type of person that think based on lot of theories. a person that doesn't really know how to apply those theories into her daily routine. in other words, i got the knowledge but i don't have the skills.

i did cry in the office's restroom just now. i admit it. sounds stupid, right? but that's how i want to let go all of my frustration. yes, i am really frustrate with myself. i've been thinking a lot about myself lately. people might say that i am very lucky, very bright for getting that 'Dean List Award' for four consecutive times. thank you but don't judge me based on the exam papers alone. all that is just theories. try see me doing it practically, you'll see that i'll be having hard times in performing it. trust me.

now you can see the bad side of exam-oriented system in our country. good on papers doesn't shows that you have the capability in performing the task that can fulfill the satisfactions required by the employers.

i envy those who are good doing anything practically. they might not excel in papers but they have the skills. i was quite down just now but i think about it again. this is not the end of my journey in reaching for success, it's the beginning of my journey. i swear to myself that i will push myself very hard to master my profession theoretically and practically. i will sharpen my skill. chaiyok!

thank you, mr blogger for being such a good listener. i feel better now. another reminder for myself, just think positive all the time although your surroundings don't seem to be that way. although there is peoples that will annoy you a lot.

by the way, i want to congratulate my dad once again. congratulations on your recent promotion, ayah! i'm very proud and happy for you. you have worked so hard and now you get the reward. yes, he will be occupied a position in Bank Muamalat as the Head of MCRC East Malaysia. he will be handling the Sabah and Sarawak branches. that's really a very tiring job, dad but i believe that you can do it! :)

i miss them so much

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can't wait to meet you guys again! imsym. :)

OBSESSION

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besides gadget, i'm a type of person that adores perfumes so much. i'm so addicted with the relaxing smell of fragrances. whenever i'm at the airport or any shopping complex, i will make sure that i'll have the chance to sniff on any perfumes. window shopping on perfumes is a must for me.

perfumes are the only must-have item that i can afford to have now (besides my handphones and laptop). i can't afford to buy those gadgets that have the letter "i" in front of it. just kidding, don't mean to tease those who have it. but i envy you guys. :)

all those perfumes are some of my collections. i love these three perfumes since they were the presents given by dad.

GUESS: it was my first branded perfume. i accidentally broke it during my family trip to Bintulu.
PARIS HILTON'S HEIRESS: this perfume has a sweet scent. i love that smell and mom loves it too. she did use mine sometimes. hee. i still keep the bottle till now.
BURBERRY, THE BEAT: this is my most favourite perfume among all and i'm currently using this one. it comes with a lotion and i used it every night. on daytime, i will just use the perfume alone.

since my current perfume is going to finish soon, i think i should start hunting for the new ones. LOL. i just can't resist the relaxing, sweet scent of fragrances. maybe i got this obsession from my dad. he has plenty of perfume collections. from ralph lauren to DKNY, you name it. he has every branded perfume in his closet. :)

it's time for perfume's window shopping!

new chapter.

2010-11-26T09:08:00.000+08:00

assalamualaikum, dear readers.

as what you can see, i've deleted all of my previous posts. i have my own reasons for my actions. to be honest, i really hate most of my previous posts. too many emo feelings, too many immature posts and so on. i just want to forget all the painful memories that i've wrote here in this blog. i don't want any of those negative ions to influence me again. so, i want a new, fresh start for my blog. trying to be more matured in delivering and expressing all the thoughts that i have in my mind.

that's all for the moment. gonna write more later. thanks! have a nice day.